Id really like to talk, but they took away my tounge, and replaced it with a thousand lonely tears
Ive been really depressed lately and Im not sure why. I keep feeling stressed out and as if Im going no where. I keep thinking that Im just lonely, but I dont think thats really it, because I have all of my friends right here. Im easily annoyed, and its making me feel like a jerk. even if, in my current state, its not a good thing, I really just want to be left alone. this isnt so easy when, everytime I say Im going to do something, my roommates say "great idea - lets go!" I was going to go to sami's pita house and get some food, but I didnt really know how to get there, so carl said "well, if you want to wait until lori gets home we can all go" and since I have a hard time saying no to people, I agreed. when we got home he started clearing off the table so we could eat. I was like "uhmm... Im actually going to eat in my room" and he sort of gave me a hard time about it, saying Im being 'anti-social' lately. *sigh* Im not sure what to do anymore. I just want to cry and get it over with, but Im thinking that wont help.
I need something - I just wish I knew what it was.